Will Someone Wake Me From This Nightmare :(
submitted 2 months 24 days 14 hours ago by: PINKY : 43 commentsi feel so miserable...i tried to help a classfellow out of a tight corner....all the good it did to me was i earned an enemy....i mean my friend's enemy thought it inconsiderate of me to meddle in his affairs.....
so here i am,completely without a clue as to what to do now.....the guy has threatened four of us with HIV infected blood injections n bullets.....i remember reading sth related to such injections in paper...i never knew sth like that would ever happen to me....
i don't want to die such a futile death....whenever i dream abt dying i always picture a fighting scene...bullets flying all around me while i m trying to corner bad guys....well,bullets ARE a part of equation :) but there is no fight n i m not even playing saviour :(.....actually its the injections that are bothering me..i even escaped hepatitis vaccination owing to the fear of injection ...(since the vaccination was at school so i played a double blufff telling teachers that i m already vaccinated n telling mum that injection has numbed my arm don't touch me :)..... this time its not even vaccination, poor me
everyone has to die...i too have no choice but this is not the way i want to die...i havn't even performed hajj yet....i don't have kids of my own...i havn't contributed to my nation's well-being....my friend says he is a coward, won't carry out his empty threats...but i m not so sure....yet i m not totally despondent i read in reader's digest a long time ago, that during a reserach they saw that some monkeys had the HIV virus but they dint developed AIDS....maybe this time too my monkey instincts end up saving me :)
i don't know y i posted this blog...This is not intended to elicit sympathy...i m kind of beyond help but still i dont want u ppl to think k i m a deserter (if i end up with lead in me)....so no one would b able to convey you the news of my departure...i thought i should do that myself prematurely.....
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Pinky tell people around you that he has threatend you with HIV injections and why not file an FIR against him if he does some thing stupid at least the police would know who to go after.
TELL PEOPLE AROUND YOU ABOUT THE HIV THREAT AND YOUR FIGHT TO SAVE YOUR FRIEND FROM THAT PERSON.
taimur, how can u flie an FIR against a person who hasn't done anything so far...it was an oral threat n i dint recorded it.......no evidence no nothing....yeah once there is a body to go upon police would b able to play an active role....dun worry, i have written down his name in incriminating documents everywhere....(my diary,laptop)
Just have him added to the list of 'missing persons'; didn't you say you knew someone in the Police force? They do this kind of thing all day long
u hava a very selective memory,havn't you?? when i mentioned that my dad is police officer, i also wrote in the same comment that he is very honest......he would rather have me murdered than arrest an "innocent" person...
Sorry, don't know why 'uncle' came to mind.
Anyway, we are all curious to hear the full story and maybe then we can give you better advice
i m not much of a story teller....don't know how to start....
this guy (g) proposed to a friend of mine...she refused since she was already engaged...but he begged her to continue friendship...she obliged n kept in touch....another mutual friend informed me that g is keeping record of every mail,sms she sends to him for a "later" use....i got alarmed n warned my friend to discontinue correspondence with such an evil guy who can potentially harm her...by taking those mails n msgz to her fiance for a start.....
bus ye advice dai k mera kaam ho gaya....somehow he learned that i was behind the estrangement of his beloved (since she did acted on my advice n discontinued documentable interaction with him)........the crazy lunatic vowed to do things to me "i would never have imagined in my worst nightmares".........
I wouldn't worry too much about him. Just make sure you keep your dad's gun close by, don't leave the house alone, look behind you every few seconds, get in the habit of running instead of walking from one place to another, stick to well lit, well populated places, trust no one, not even your family members, watch what you eat and drink and that's it! Trust me, you will be fine if you implement these simple and easy to follow lifestyle changes
wasn't such style of living be like "DON's life", in which he/she have to care about the move of bird's wing. This would be life with full of tensions.
What i will suggest that keep eyes, be prepared and get plan on his second threat which should be totally documented/taped, and should be used as an evidence for FIR and other legal proceedings against him.
hahaha...i m enough paranoid as it is....i would bcome even more jumpy....kia hai na, ab main mentally prepared hun for this thing...i will meet my naano over there...
anyway thnx for ur interest n advice....i wasn't looking for help tips...i just took a leaf out of zardari's book n exploitd the grim situation to have some sort of eulogy competition (dedicated to me)...
but tit for tat...the world is as indifferent to my plight as i was to the news(abt injections) i read in some newspaper....
You will be fine, crazy girl
i m not crazy g.....anyway u better rest...its getting late in ur part of the world....
Allah Hafiz
That was an expression of endearment....
lolz....acha kia bata diya.....
now take some rest,,,,there is a good boy.....dark circles na bun jayain kahin :)
Ok Pinky aunty, good night
u killed me even faster than bullets ;)
Pinky use your mobile phone camera or voice recorder next time he threatens you. I think then you can file an FIR against him.
Just read the blog. Wondering how things are now!!
Taimur,u don't know him na...he is very very cunning...2 days ago he casually opened his folder n produced an injection...then he looked at me with meaningful eyes....i smiled disdainfully with false bravado.....there was that steely determination in his eyes which is a hallmark of villians...i prefer to think k it was my imagination:)...n i m afraid i have a moto Razr V3....even if i do manage to record sth, it won't be very conclusive....n i m not interestd in meeting him either...why should i give him opportunity to stab me n speed up the process....
Ummm sounds like a suspense or rather horror movie story LOL kiddin
Just stay away from him and let people around you know all that and thats the best advice i can give .
Well Pinky maybe he is all threats! As long as he has even a flicker of hope to get back your friend one way or the other, he won't do anything to you!
she is getting married in september....this desperado might take it out on me then....i, too, think so that he is just trying to scare me....but don't u think its more of wishful thinking than realistic???
Well men are overconfident, no? :)
Just the thing that makes them vulnerable!
One more thing that I must add here is that 'absolute faith in Allah' is required! Nothing that HE hasn't preplanned for you will happen. Don't be afraid of ppl and what evil they are capable of because your imagination won't stretch that far.
Have faith and fear not! Do a lil sadqa as well- that helps me deal with fears!
lolz....so i should try to look overconfident and in the process make myself vulnerable....this reminds me of the Chicken game,we did in connection with game theory.....
Two hooligans with something to prove drive at each other on a narrow road. The first to swerve loses faces among his peers and is called chicken... If neither swerves, however, a terminal fate plagues both..........
I thought you were talking about his umm wistful thinking.. well if it is yours you need to curb it, no?
Anyways all the best! Take care!
thnx janu behna...
oops sorry u don't like being called that...
but i m already on deathwatch,,,,,,so i can afford recklessness...:)
:)
.........annnd I have been 'honeyed' at my own blog! That was quite an anticlimax itself! The love flowing at buzzvines is absolutely mindblowing, isn't it?
:) yup it is....that nightmare is a bit better than my own (in terms of chances of improvement).....:)
Allah behtari karre ga INSHALLAH. :)
Allah aap ki dua ko sharf-e-qabule'at bakhshay....
it seems i m left with no willpower to live...every day brings loads of bad news from domestic, national international fronts....i m no more the pinky i used to be..ever optimistic, appeasing, peace-loving, caring girl....i m sick of living in this world....i feel as if everyone is my enemy...i spend half of the night crying in my pillow....previously i used to devote the time of load shedding to meditation/catharsis ..now i just sit back n curse n wail....previously i used to share my feelings with my close friends whenever i felt like it..now i think they r too busy in their own world so i m reduced to venting my feelings on these buzzes n blogs,,with strangers who don't care i live or die.......i m not me anymore...i hate this change but i can't help it....i realize the fact that i m being self-destructive but mere realization alone doesnt help....i m withering before my eyes....
plz ignore the above comment of mine...i m so full of negative destructive feelings these days...
Female hormones (sigh) they work in mysterious ways.
On a more serious note, these are signs of maturity; things no longer appear rosy or made to seem so. Reality has taken its grip.
Now what you do with this awareness is going to define you, your present and your future which literally is in your hands
Start by taking some advil; it helps with the cramps, I hear
i dont want to have anything to do with such maturity which robs me of peace of mind....i was better off being immature
see i havnt attained maturity yet..:)
Nothing lasts. You'll get through!
Pinky dear, I agree - there is alot of bad news around but u can't give up hope...u have the power to change things - to bring glad tidings - it is in your reach so sometimes it is ok to get such news - i think it spurs us into action...it reminds us of our purpose...nothing has ever been in vain...have faith dear and keep trying, don't get disheartened quickly, your efforts are not insignificant...yes, the battle is uphill but how beautiful the view will be from the top when you've made your 'mark' and dug in your flag...? I once heard something or read it in a SMS i think - to the effet that - "Allah gives us challenges not that they may grind us to dust but polish us to become shining gems!" Sty shinign, dear and I do care and am always here for u...give me a big 'banana' smile...pretty please? duas x :)
if colgate ppl happen to see me right now, they might approach me with an ad offer..(i m grinning from ear to ear)...
its just that i get wound up easily...n when ppl find that... they never let go of an opportunity to pester me....if my husband would ever wish to get rid of me, he would have a real easy time to prove that i m crazy.......:)
(i guess i was under the influence of hormones when i wrote that line...Iola, taimur n u do seem to care )
I care a lot; just not for the tantrums
i m getting smart..i have learned to goad ppl, the way they do it to me...la LA la LA
Give people what they want.....
u always spoil it for me
You are welcome
I am glad, Pinky :)